I spent 9 days in my hometown. And it’s a testament to the fact that I’m moving into a different phase of my life because I was not diving into my car on the last day. I was really sad to leave. Being around my family and in my hometown really makes me feel like a more complete person. If I didn’t love my job as much as I do, I would be in relocation mode I think. I think the Sagittarius in me feels stifled. I’m ready to roam, even if there’s a chance I would be roaming back to the place from which I roamed years ago (or maybe I’ll roam northward or across some great body of water–who knows, but I’m getting restless and feeling unfulfilled).
The week was filled with various emotions, but overall, I’m thankful. For the ability to feel and handle those emotions, to have people who love me, to have been able to spend time with my remaining grandparents, to have a base that reminds me of what’s important and can reel me back in when I’m wandering too far. So my birthday was last Monday, and since then, I have embarked on my Road to 29 mission. Instead of waiting until 2010 to start a new year, I started one Tuesday. This year I’m making myself my priority. And I’m not just saying the trite cliche that you hear around New Year’s Eve. I’ve already started exercising and eating better and making time for what makes me sane. So I may chronicle some of it here, but y’all know how I get when I’m busy. 🙂 One of my goals, though, is to go back to what I said before and delete some of this busyness. Especially when alot of it no longer makes me happy or is even vaguely enjoyable.
As I’ve alluded to in my blog once or twice, this year I’ve grappled a lot with my spiritual health. A lot has happened in 2009 that affected me to the core, but this week, I felt some sense of Walk in the Light/beautiful light/ain’t it wonderful how the light shines and some You told me you could keep me/but I’ve turned it away…Feeling so very weak/you say I can be strong/I feel I’ve gone too far/You tell me to come home/You love me still. I guess it’s just something about that verse “Train up a child…” because spending some prolonged time in the place where I was trained just helped me feel reconnected.
Now, I have plenty to blog about from the last week. Including a part two to my blog about the proposed merging of schools in MS and a couple of stories from my hometown adventure. So I will (seriously… I really will!). Until then, I’ll leave you with a hymn my pastor led us in yesterday at church. Be blessed!
What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Ev’rything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev’rything to God in prayer!
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge;
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer;
In His arms He’ll take and shield thee;
Thou wilt find a solace there.