Well, the Gospel Extravaganza is tomorrow, and I’m experiencing several emotions. I’m excited, worried, nervous, and the list goes on. But most of all, what started out as a marketing ploy has really become an aha moment. I decided to join the lineup in hopes that people I know would come out just to hear me sing. Because I’m not so diligent in finding opportunities to use all of my talents, there are a ton of people who have no idea I can sing. And the one time I sang on a stage in GA in 2007, it was kinda iffy. I dunno why. Well, yeah I do. I was nervous, I was upset about my hair, I was ready for the event to be over, and a ton of other issues.
I joined the choir at my church a couple of years ago, but I haven’t made my Thursday free in order for me to go to choir rehearsal so that’s been a bust. Last year, I sang as one half of a duet in my line sister’s wedding, and that was exhilarating! So why haven’t I made singing a priority? *shrug* I don’t really know. So I was UBER nervous before rehearsal last night, but when I got that mic in my hand and let the notes start flowing, I was back in my element. So when will I give all my talents some attention? I definitely don’t want to lose any of them, especially not my voice. I just have so many that I struggle to understand why they were given to me or what I’m supposed to do with them or how they fit together with each other (if they do at all!). I mean, singing is something I love. Even though Smokie is the only one who hears me on a regular basis. I definitely need to get with it!
When I sing, I express and fully feel emotions that aren’t normally expressed by me. I can be a somewhat a-emotional person. I’m kind of an extremist. Either I’m not expressive at all or I blow up. Never too much in the middle. But when I sing, emotions relevant to the song just well up and overflow. Happiness, excitement, sadness, hurt, anger, anxiety, hope, enthusiasm, all of it. There’s a song that parallels anything I’m feeling and can’t quite get out. Music just does something to my soul. So here’s to sanging, and here’s to a successful concert on tomorrow!