MLM – Appreciating the Rain

MLM – Appreciating the Rain

Well, I’ve been dealing with some personal storms, and this morning, this story came to mind.  I posted this on 8-18-2003, and the story actually occurred in 2001.

On my way to work, I kept having the feeling that I left the stove on. So I turned around, and of course, it was not on. Luckily, I wasn’t late for work, but I hope I’m not becoming obsessive/compulsive. My ma says it’s probably just that I am growing up and realizing that I no longer have anyone to check behind me. Anyhow, it reminded me of two summers ago, my first summer in Atlanta, when I had an internship here, and I lived in the graduate apartments at Emory. I didn’t have my car with me in Atlanta, so I would walk to the Marta bus stop and catch the bus to the train and ride the train to my internship. Well, one particular morning, I was running late. It was raining lightly outside and I couldn’t find my umbrella or my hooded windbreaker, which was odd since I didn’t have much to look through. So I decided to walk through the drizzle so I wouldn’t be too late for work. The closer I got to the bus stop, the harder it rained. The whole way I fighting tears and asking the Lord to please let it stop raining until I got on the bus. When I got to the bus stop, it started pouring down. Rain was just beating down on me, and I was so upset that I was standing out there in the rain and that I would look a mess when I got to work. I decided to walk back to my apartment and dry off and start over. During my walk, I kept asking the Lord, “Why would you do that to me?” while crying and trying not to be hysterically upset. I walked back in my apartment completely drenched, and there was my answer… I had left my gas stove on. I immediately apologized to the Lord for doubting Him and started laughing after my heart stopped beating so fast after turning the stove off. What a tragedy it’d been if that gas had stayed on from 8-6… After I started over and got ready again, guess what. It was beautiful outside. And of course, I found my windbreaker under my books and folders in my bag (the one I was digging through as I walked in the rain trying to find something with which to cover up). And my umbrella was where I had left it–beside my desk… Unreal, huh? It’s instances like that one that let me know there is a higher power, and that I am watched over all the time. Well, let me get back to work.

One of my mantras is “perspective.”  Everything happens for a reason, yanno.  Even if it seems horrible or sad or negative now, there’s always a greater purpose that you’ll recognize when you try.  Even when you seem to not have any support or “covering,” God’s always there crafting and managing the situation.

One of my favorite quotes is “Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass… it’s about learning how to dance in the rain.”

And there it is.  Time to put my dancing shoes on.

 

MLM: How to Know God’s Leading You

MLM: How to Know God’s Leading You

Having not such a good day, but this post from 6-7-07 jumped out at me as I was browsing.  Still not really sure what it means to me on today, but it’s a pretty good post.  Enjoy.  Hope you’re having a better day than I am!  Oh, and Happy Indigenous People’s (or Native Americans) Day.

“Abraham… obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.” Hebrews 11:8 NIV

God guides us by closing one door then opening another. Abraham didn’t know where he was going, but he knew he couldn’t stay where he was — and that’s enough to create movement in the right direction. Knowing you can’t stay where you are is often the starting point of God’s guidance. And it usually begins with an inward stirring and restlessness in your soul. Seasons have beginning and endings. When a season is over, you sense it’s time to move!

“They headed north [to]… Bithynia, but again the Spirit… said no. So instead they went on through Mysia province to the city of Troas. That night Paul had a vision. In his dream he saw a man over in Macedonia, Greece, pleading with him, ‘Come over here and help us.’ Well, that settled it. We would go to Macedonia, for we could only conclude that God was sending us to preach the Good News there” (Acts 16:7-10 TLB). Notice, when God kept Paul from going to Asia, Paul didn’t stay there praying and asking “why?” — he just kept moving. For Paul, trying something and it not working out was no big deal. He believed that his gift to God was his willing heart and his mobility, and that God’s gift to him was that He would always guide him to where he needed to be. What God prevents, denies, or keeps us away from is as much divine guidance as what He permits and opens up to us. Every door that didn’t open, every opportunity you didn’t get, every call that didn’t come, is as much God’s guidance as those that did. Think about it!

What He said to me:
This whole devotional today was for me. I bolded and italicized the stuff that jumped out in a big way. My reading and praying today were confirmation for some of the things I’ve done in the past (including recent past) that some thought was kinda crazy, but I just felt I was supposed to move. I can only praise God for working with me–I might have issues in one area, but definitely not in all. I’ve always been ready and able to move in and out of situations that cultivate my future as far as career and business, etc., go. I have to thank Him for that strength because really, that’s what keeps me going when I’m severely struggling with my weak areas.

Which leads me to my weakest area–relationships. It also reinforced all that I’m having to re-learn about relationships. I have the tendency to try to make things work instead of letting them work. And of course instead of letting people go when their seasons are over, I have a hard time and I keep trying. Thinking there has to be something I can do to stop the end from coming (or from my castle being “destroyed” as the metaphor was yesterday). And I have to stop doing that. But I can say that the Lord is good to me because He takes people away from me–closes doors, stops calls, all that jazz–when He sees I’m not gonna. It creates an extra bit of pain, but at the end of the day I know it’s because I was keeping something that would distract me and hinder me from going where I’m supposed to go. I just have to learn how to deal with that pain. Or avoid the pain altogether by being obedient!!!! Which is my goal. I have got to learn how to apply the almost blind faith I have in Him in my business/career life to my personal/social life. Once I master that, oh goodness, watch out now!!

MLM: Good friends, good music, good conversation

MLM: Good friends, good music, good conversation

I found this post, written on 1/8/04.  I took a little bit of it out cuz I have some present day things to say. 🙂

I thought this post was interesting because:

1-I was just thinking about how I haven’t been to Apache on a Wednesday in soooooooo long (way too long) and I ran into one of my old Apache buddies when I was leaving How Sweet the Sound, which was such a great concert, Saturday night.

2-This post talks a little about how much singing means to me.  Saturday night, while at the gospel concert, I was thinking, if I would just take my little busy bee butt to choir rehearsal, it’s possible that I’d be on stage right now.  Then on Sunday, I went to the studio and started laying down a track for a songwriter/producer friend of mine who is trying to sell a song and thought my voice was perfect for it even though it’s been years since he heard me sing. Singing is definitely a release, and I felt better when I left.  I dunno why I don’t make singing more of a priority.  I say this at least 4 times every year. 🙂

3-This little metaphor about boys and jeans that I wrote over 6 years ago made me smile so I want to share.

It’s a morose Monday for me because it was cold as ever this morning (48 degrees), and I’m having some other little issues.  But maybe some noon time sunshine and an email or two will make me feel a little happier.  Enjoy the post, and I hope you’re in for a mucho productive week!

Last night I had a wonderful time. We went to Apres Diem for dinner first then to Apache, which is one of my fave spots. Thank you to my home girl Mo for taking me there a year ago. Music is so good for the soul, I tell you. At first, I was getting agitated because there were no seats, and I was getting a little weary. Then one of the girls I was with debo’ed a table, and shortly after two more seats opened up, and I really enjoyed myself after that. I felt so glamorous too. Half the time I really don’t see anything in my closet to wear, but when I am trying to dress up, I think I do it right. I think I get that from my mama. [[words omitted]] So I’m sitting there, sipping on my White Zinfandel and enjoying the company three other black sistas, and I realize that I could get used to that. Just going out, chillin, getting wrapped up in the music. One day, I’m going to get over my chronic shyness and go up there and share a talent, share some emotions. But until then, I’ll be content feeling what other people are trying to relay and singing my heart out in the shower, in the car, and at church (while I’m in the congregation and everybody is singing).

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During dinner, my friend and I talked about alot of stuff, and one thing that she said that I am really thinking about now is that guys are like pairs of jeans. And this is both our thoughts together. We see some really cute ones, and we try them on, and they maybe fit in the waist, but not the hips. Or they fit up top but aren’t long enough. And sometimes we try on a pair that would look so good if only we could button them up or if only this, if only that, and we try and we try and we try to make them fit, but they just don’t. So we have to realize that and put them back on the rack. And maybe they were the perfect jeans, but you’re just not the right size at the time. Maybe you’ve gained weight and they would have fit before, or maybe you’re going to lose some later on, but right now, they just don’t fit. But we have to keep trying different pairs on, even if we’re disappointed about that one pair. Cuz if we don’t keep trying, we’ll never find those jeans that just fit. I wonder if I’ll ever find my pair of jeans. But I guess I do need to stop holding on to my favorite pair of jeans that split by the back pocket one day (this is for real), and get it made into a cute purse or something so that I can always cherish the memory, and go back to the mall and start trying on jeans again.

By the way, I still have those jeans.  They actually made into my throw away pile FINALLY a couple of days ago. How hilarious is that!  Now, in case you’re having a morose Monday like me, here are a couple of songs that always make me feel better.

MLM: How to Deal with a Broken Heart

MLM: How to Deal with a Broken Heart

Now let’s be clear: I don’t have one, lol–but I’ve definitely experienced my share of hurt and disappointment.  As I was searching through my archives, this post grabbed me, so I’m hoping one of my readers needs to see this.  I shared this on 8/19/2003.

This was going to be a phenomally long post because I wanted to share a couple of emails. I guess I have sounded really dark lately (so my friends tell me) so I’ve been getting inspiration emails. I really am fine, y’all. There is a season for everything. Anywho, two of the emails were really nice, but I will only share the one my ma sent me this morning right now. Hopefully, someone who needs it will come across my page. And I’ll be able to find it later without having to keep the email.

MountainWings A MountainWings Moment
#3231 Wings Over The Mountains of Life
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How do you mend a broken heart?

We get a lot of prayer requests asking to simply pray for their broken heart.  So what do you do when you’ve got a broken heart?

Here are four steps that will help you up that mountain.

1. Occupy 2. Gratify 3. Sanctify 4. Glorify.

Occupy:
Occupy your time, don’t sit around moping. Do something. Idleness is the soil of self-pity and depression. Get busy. The best thing that you can do is to do something that helps others. It’s a universal principle that when you start focusing on helping others, your own problems are diminished. Don’t just stand there, DO SOMETHING!

Gratify:
Write a list of the things you like, then pick three of those things and put those things in your life – now. Make sure you can afford them and that they aren’t harmful. When our hearts are broken, we often deprive ourselves of the things we enjoy. Make an effort to put enjoyment in your life.

Sanctify:
Do good. Don’t return evil for evil, hurt for hurt, pain for pain. Don’t wish something horrible would happen to the other person. Hope for their good fortune in your spirit, and it just may release your good fortune in your world. The easiest way to forget someone, is to truly wish them well.

Glorify:
Life is not over. You can live without them. Not only can you live without them, you can live even happier without them. It is a matter of perspective. Even with the negative in your world at the moment, there is something to be thankful for. There is plenty to be thankful for actually. Give God the glory for what you have. You can’t be sad and thankful at the same time. Tell heartbreak to move over. There is a sermon on http://www.TheOnlineWord.com called, “Breaking the 3-Way Tie, How to Break Soul, Sex and Spirit Ties.” If you or someone you know is suffering from a broken heart, they might do well to listen to it.

A famous comedian said, “A man isn’t a man until he’s had his heart broken.”

It’s not really broken, it’s just tenderized.

Today will be a good day!

And as it was in 2003, I hope you’re having a great day today!  Here’s a great song from Destiny’s Child. 🙂

Ain’t no feeling like being free
When your mind’s made up and your heart’s in the right place, yeah
Ain’t no feeling like being free
When you’ve done all you could and was misunderstood
Ain’t no feeling like being free
I’m like an eagle set free and finally I’m looking out for me
Ain’t no feeling like being free
Cuz my mind’s made up and my heart is in the right place, yeah

Memory Lane Monday: Honey Bunches of Quotes

Memory Lane Monday: Honey Bunches of Quotes

Yeah, the title is a smidge cheesy, but it’s Monday, and it’s not a manic one so let me have this one.  And it’s time for an old post. 🙂  This one is from 9/16/2003.

A few quotes:

They say love hides behind every corner… I must be walking around in circles.

Love starts with a hug, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

Love is like an hour glass–the brain empties as the heart fills up.

What’s better? A lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?

Don’t fall for someone who won’t be there to catch you.

Love is like war; easy to begin and hard to end.

Do you believe in love at first sight? Or should I walk by again?

If ignorance is bliss, why aren’t more people happy?

Two wrongs don’t make a right, but three lefts do.

Anything in parenthesis can (not) be ignored.

You don’t have to be faster than the bear, you just have to be faster than the slowest guy running from the bear.

In just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday.

Think of someone of “average” intelligence. Then think half the world is dumber than that.

If a word in the dictionary were misspelled, how would we know?

Ok, ok, ok, I typed more than a few, but I like them. 🙂

Aren’t these still great?  Well, a little cynical, but still at least a little funny.  Here are two more for the road.

It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.

And in the end it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years. -Abraham Lincoln

<<::update:: 1:19 pm::>> I just got a new quote to add!

The issue is keeping the knot tied, not tying it. -R. Brian Gibson

Now ain’t that the truth!

Memory Lane Monday: Time to Talk

Memory Lane Monday: Time to Talk

On Mondays, I will try to find an old post (I used to blog before it was the popular thing to do and I have tons of old posts) that is relevant now.  Today’s post is from Sept 14, 2006, and I called it “Time to Talk”–please leave in the comments any new thoughts. 😀

my very best friend throughout high school sent me a text message today and it’s opened all kinds of cold case files. pleasant so far but i’m sure some negative ones are coming but i will say so far it’s been a really warm feeling. Here’s the text:

Finish this sentence: I have always wanted to tell you that… Text me the answer and send this to everyone to see what they have to say??

So far I’ve gotten these:

u inspire me to work harder on maintaining my friendships

u r one of the best friends I have ever had!!!

I miss kicking it w/you like we used to

i love u!

I love u so much

you are the prototype 🙂

you’re beautiful!

ur very intelligent abd i love that about u!

even though we don’t talk often you will always be “special” to me (from my spec :-D)

u r a great black eyed pea cooker. for real Ur a good person

Talk about a self-esteem booster!!! I have such wonderful people in my life, and I’m so glad Kenya sent me that txt cuz it’s just an opportunity to tell people something u wouldn’t normally think to tell them. those weren’t the only ones–i was also able to talk to a couple of people about stuff that’s happened in the past. i sent this to half the folks in my phone, so i’m sure i’ll be getting messages all day so i may come back and add some more later. 🙂 Send this to your friends, and see what happens! And to all my friends, I LOVE YOU!

So… four years later, let’s finish this sentence: “I have always wanted to tell you that…” But this time, leave your answers in the comments!